rattled
i was so rattled when W_ called last night. so rattled and afraid because he was hinting that he knew about my current arrangement about sharing an apartment with a male friend. and the fact that i thought he was out of my life for good. yet there he was, larger as life and as seductive as ever.
the live-in arrangement is simply that, a live-in arrangement. there's no sex involved. not even any hint of emotional intimacy or that the relationship is going that way any time soon.
but i was still rattled because his call was unexpected. and with my roommate listening in to the conversation the whole thing became sort of surreal.
i wonder what's next down the line for us both. that call last night was the offshoot of a three-month frigid silence between us. rather, i instigated the quarrel that led to the strain because i was sort of fed up with him.
my personal life is spinning out of control it seems. i will allow it. i am curious to know how it will all end. i just hope i end up down the road happy and content about my decisions.
posted by neri @ 8:07 PM
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